this work of mine is from summer, 2018. it is a very special one for me because for a long time i thought these photos saved my life.

you see, i was quite suicidal back at the time, wondering about how it would feel to die in various ways, mostly drowning. 

not the most popular way, i know, and definitely not the easiest. but i suppose my 16 year old self found a meaning in it to portrait in this way.

as a teenager, i took these photos with my old phone in a simple pool, even used myself as an subject too. so it's a selfie. after taking these and editing with the tools i knew, i found purpose for at least doing something.

then thankfully, i continued to take pictures and create stories like these, for myself. as the purpose being to express myself. i still believe if i didn't express my inner thoughts like this and got the reflection or validation i needed, i might have not been here.