It's always winter where I am 
But 2am is spring 

Ash falls around me like snowflakes 
And I burn my fingers from the heat of the filter 
My cigarette is a magic wand 
Keeping me alight 
Keeping me awake

I always want to be somewhere else
But in this moment I know what okay means
I have found happiness 
And happiness is a 2am smoke break

I mark 2am on my atlas
A place to visit 
4am is when I question everything 
A place to avoid 

I watch the streetlights
The city lights
A horizon of sunrises
An eclipse of a local joint 
A meteor shower of smoke 

There are no musings
There is peace 

I stay out all night
Starlight reaching me from a million years away
Energy bouncing off me 
I smile back at them 
Stars
One day I will reach you too

I made friends with four walls 
Cages aren't meant for people
But sometimes I don't know how to be a person

I never write poetry that contains joy
I never think about love
But tonight I fell in infatuation with the bones in my body
The wind in my hair
The smoke in my eyes
Beauty is not familiar 
But tonight it is home 

I am a conductor of creation
Waving my smoke stick 
Knowing something moves because I will it 
I close one eye and the moon dances
Moon
Make the ocean kiss the boulders
Make the trees whisper secrets lost in city sound

I am so surrounded by gravity
Tonight I stand on two feet
I lie down under a canopy of celestial wandering 
I laugh in the emptiness of sound 
You're crazy 
You're crazy
This is what life feels like
Running through my blood
Racing through my spine
A joyride of existence

I hear nature tweeting
Everyone is waking up
Busy has reached the to do list

I watch the streetlights go out 
One by one
More ethereal than any sunset
The gold hues fading into pink atmosphere
Goodbye Sana
See you soon 

I'll see you soon