New Year to me is like an avalanche of my friends' social media posts reminiscing about what they've achieved for the past year and setting new goals for the upcoming year. It's great though, to read all these kinds of posts and reinforce the confidence that they're all taking their goals seriously (and effortlessly I guess). When I look at my own list and try to collect the broken pieces of it, I always come to the horrible realization that one-third of half of the goals are unfinished, and afterwards I'm filled with regrets and guilts, and this has been going on for the past 2 years now. The worst thing about this annual ritual is I've been recently finding it hard and scary to face my own chain of thoughts. I've left a lot of blank pages in my diary notebook and eventually spent less time on writing, which is a real bummer because writing has been something I'm determined to focus on this year.
But I don't want to make it sound so sentimental and ruin the party mood of the new year thing. So I've made up my mind. I made up my mind to take better care of the unfinished things because they deserve to earn new spots on the list instead of being ignored. The project that you're about to enjoy is one of many unfinished projects of 2017. Mind you, I'm intrinsically a procrastinator and there are countless reasons why I've been putting this off for quite a long time. In fact, I've never given myself a proper chance to look back at my trip to Thailand in the last summer, to truly appreciate it and many memories that go along. In all the possible futures that I could ever imagine, I always dream of going back and reuniting with the people there: my host family, my students, and my friends. They all played a huge part in making many adventures become reality and creating many worthwhile moments for me. Even when I found myself all alone in the sea of people, I could still feel their presence and warmth that kept my bravery and freedom alive. I'm grateful for it and will tattoo all these great things in my heart until the end of my life and even my afterlife.
For them xxx
01.01.2018
Thailand.
